I have not been feeling crazy(not the good kind anyway), nor have I been crafty, and the caffeine is one of the only things that has been keeping me functioning. I have been hibernating. Literally just going thru day to day activities on auto mode. This month has dealt me some pretty hard blows. You know what they say when it rains it pours. Some blows were personal, some concerning family, others work and frankly it was just to much for this heart and mind to handle. So thus the hibernation. My world stopped for about a minute and then spiraled out of my control.
I don't think I can explain it any better than The Yarn Harlot did...
-my heart got broken.
It doesn't matter what happened. Hearts get broken all the time. Marriages crumble, people die, there are bad accidents, reversals of fortune, intentional hurts, crushing disappointments, or surprises that one can't bear. Every person is different, and to describe to you what broke my heart would only draw a divide between us. As humans we can't help it, can we? You hear about something that's a heartbreak to another human, and because you are strong where they are weak, you can't understand how it would hurt them. You can often see it in the face of someone as you try to explain your heartbreak. As you tell someone about something that has knocked you down, kicked you in the stomach, kept you awake and sobbing for ten nights, and then took your lunch money, you see that as sympathetic as they are to you, as much as they love you, they're sort of thinking "That's it?That's what all of this is about?" We're all different, and all you need to know is that something broke my heart, and I was beyond sad- Stephanie Pearl-McPhee All Wound Up: The Yarn Harlot writes for a spin 2011
That was a paragraph or two from Stephanie's 3rd book. I just love how she writes and I have been re-reading this book as it brings me comfort. I write to you about this difficult phase I am in, about this heart break, not to focus on the cause of it. For that does not matter. It will only cause me to keep hurting. No, I mention it to help the healing process. To move on. To work and focus on the ways this will all change my life and my outlook. Hopefully all for the better.
Till Next Time,
